AMBITIOUS ME

The first time ever in my life I experience this kind of restricted movement. Everybody all around the state is forbidden to move around without any valid reason. Covid-19 is a pandemic virus that spreading world wide. First detection is at Wuhan, China. It happened around early of February during Chinese New Year Festival. Then, it spreads fast and collapses so may countries in various sectors. I am not going to blabbering too much on the global phenomenon, but more on my country specifically about my closest ones. :) The incident happening now gives me the once in a blue moon opportunity to witness my husband works from home #WFH. And I believe, most of Malaysians are practicing this, as only essential sectors like food, medical etc are allowed to keep operating business physically. Every morning, my routine is to makesure my husband wakes up on time and clock in his job. But, once he got engrossed with his work, he will tend to forget the meal time. Most of the time, he will ski...

Hi, As usual, when suddenly I come here to write things down meaning I wanted to pour something out of my heart. A hard decision. Yes it is. 2020 is a new start but also the end of my first career.. yes, I quick from the job.. a job once was my dream.. an engineer which is my field of study. Almost a year I find it tough to stand it... Work pressure, bully, insufficient training, being blame.. 98% independent. No one give a sufficient guidance,,a wise manager who I looked up to being terminated in 24h notice. Till then, I've stop learning... Nobody competent enough to guide me (us) as a young engineer. At first, I thought I am a troublesome, so slow not picking up fast... But,, after sometimes I realized I hv done more than enough. The company never give enough input (training,, necessary skills..) and expect me (us) to come out with the outstanding output. It so good enough we are able to perform the job accordingly/satisfactorily. As a young engineer or a middle positio...

          Hye guys :) so long not to write anything here.. As the title mentioned, I would like to share some bittersweet experience that happened to me              several years ago. Currently issues regarding local products really overwhelming us as women.            We heard so many 'hot' topics regarding this. When was this started to happen?? HAHA.  I also have no idea. Btw, most of us Asian women tend to find products that help whitening the skin complexion without really know how do those products work. WHY?? I guessed this is because Asian stigmatization by which girls with fair complexion define the beauty. This is totally misleading!! We should care most on the skin health regardless of skin colours. Personally I awe with those who have glowing, pinkish and healthy skin though they are middle-aged :) **applaud** After all, thing happened differently on me. I faced with br...

Hello and morning guys.. How are you doing...? :)        After a long long time not to visit my blog, so today I would like to post some come back entry. HA HA HA XD  "I survived engineering school" as the title stated above, yea I already finished my undergraduate study and now waiting for convocation. To be true, it is actually hard guys to finish undergrad studies especially engineering... But Alhamdulillah, I made it guys..I made it even with full of hardness.           4 years which comprised of 8 semesters altogether were not a short period. Until now, I just realised I turned 23 already???!!! Oh dear.....sooo old and still immature lady.         There were a lot of memories created along my final semester *especially Of course good and bad memories. :) The bad memory that I could remember was that I was needed to change my Final Year Project, FYP title when there were about 3 days more for the ...

     wahai hati..          berhentilah menyeksa batinku, sahabatmu...      berhentilah kamu bersedih, berduka.. penat sang mata, sahabatmu merembeskan airnya...      wahai hati..      aku tahu engkau tabah, engkau ikhlas.. jangan sakiti dirimu..      akal juga penat memujuk kamu wahai hati...      kenapa kamu selalu mementingkan dirimu sendiri.. bersedih selalu ?      hari ini, mata melihat sesuatu.. maafkan mata kerana ternampak senyuman dia, yang membuatkan hati          rasa sedih...     akal, kamu fikirlah sendiri relevannya... pujuk hati yang sedang sedih ~      #berjalan dengan linangan air mata        

Pagi ni hujan .. lebat.. sejuk.. sesejuk hatiku yang beku ~ kenapalah aku tetiba dok rajin scroll timeline dia pagi2 nih.. kan dah zentap.. ye lahh.. sedar diri sikit.. kau tu bukannya his 1st love. aku dah sedia maklum, tapi masih lagi ada api cemburu dalam hati aku ni .. kenapa ? mungkin sebab, aku rasa aku jujur dengan perasaan diri sendiri terhadap dirinya, dan dia juga telah berbuat perkara yg sama terhadap si Dia yg terdahulu. sayangnya kamu terhadap dirinya... kuatnya rasa kasihmu terhadap dirinya... sampaikan aku rasa, aku belum lagi menakluki sepenuh jiwamu. mungkin banyak lebihnya dirinya berbanding diriku.. mungkin banyak kenangan, memori indah dirimu bersama dirinya.. yang menjadi rahsia, rapi disimpan olehmu.. aku cemburu kenapa kamu tak lagi begitu bersama diriku ? tidak bahagiakah kamu setelah berada disampingku ? aku silap merasakan bahawa kau telah menjadi milikku sepenuhnya.. aku tertanya-tanya, siapakah yang akan kau rindui ketika berseorang...

            Hello everyone :) This entry exclusively I want to share about my very first pet ----------> S E P E T ! But sadly, he was no longer in this world. This cat had died and the whole family of mine can feel his absence.  First of all, Sepet was not a Persian type of cats or any other glamour kind of cats.. He was only a stray cat. He got white base fur colour and several spot of orange colours. I still remember when the first time he came to our house and like begging for food... He was very ugly, got injured, very thin that I could see his rib cage... and got disgusting ringworms around his body... Oh my God.. poor cat.. Ayah fed him by giving a bowl of rice mixed with a bit of fish.. Cat is seem to be the last listed pet for Ayah. Ayah had a kind of historical, unforgettable memories with cats before. Ayah once got a cat but he defecated on his bed. This was all made him upset !! Since then, Ayah is less interested in cats.........

          Assalamualaikum :) .... ermm.. our lives such a time race..Every single seconds mean a lot for us. Every precious moment would never happened again. Believe me. For instance, a date with a boyfriend/girlfriend would never be the same as the first date.. even though both are still the same couple.Your feelings... your attire...you conversations..... everything gonna change ! Yes... your happiness your sadness would never be from the same causes as previous ~ We should once ponder about this, how we gonna appreciate every moment left... with family,with friends.. since every lives will come to an end. Some kind of sentimental introduction  I guess . wakakaka XD          ok now serious matter. Last week and still happening.....one of my family members was admitted to hospital (HBKL). My beloved brother :( He was suspected dengue after the third check up as his blood was said to have concentrated. To make things beco...

          Hola !! :D Good morning folks ! mwehehehe..         Anyway, it seems like to have a rainy morning here because I can see the dark clouds in the sky.. wohh!! that's mean I can sleep again !! OMG OMG OMG !!          Today is the 8th days of semester break.. hurmm..started to think what I will be doing for another 4 weeks?? URGhh.. bored already. I am thinking about to do a part time job but then ibu seems not to give permission.       You know what, recently I did kek batik !! That was my first trial ever. Not bad guys...not bad... hukhukhuk.. before this I just listened to the recipe from my friend but never done it ! As usual, I will ask my sister to do it along.. not that I afraid of cooking alone .. I just need to have a companion. :P      ermm... a bit trouble happened because I don't know the exact measurement of ingredients so that how could I ...

     Here we go ! Now I would like to announce that I am officially ended with my 3rd semeseter !!! oyeahhhh!! #crazyfrogdance      Simply say, my third semester was absolutely incredible! I was like zombie all day with my swollen eye bag eyes.. phewww~ T,T       Frankly say, throughout my life, I never burned the midnight oil ! Not because I am a hardworking person, study everyday so that I didn't do so.. ermmm... It's only because that was not my routine~ HEHE      And noww... I want to show you guys my workload during my 3rd semester specifically on my computer aided class. By the way, I supposed to hate this subject but after all, I still could finished up all assignments by myself ! with NO PLAGIARISM for sure :3      This was one of the assignments which my friends and I stayed up all night, encountered so many troubles till one time Ama's laptop down and she needed to do all again from the beginni...

 hai ! =) korang pernah admire someone?? aku.. GILA tak pernah.. haha oke..bermulalah al-kisah aku admire seorang mamat yang diberi nama Syahmi (bukan nama sebenar) hehe. Waktu ni, aku berada di ting.4. Semuanya bermula dengan tidak disengajakan ... Ting.4 bagi aku serta kawan2 yg lain adalah time heaven. Almaklumlah.. dah senior, lagi2 bukan budak2 nak ambek exam besar...wakaka.. time ni lah budak2 me'lagha' nye. =) Ehemm... semua time ni dah ada skandal masing2 ~aku... aku je tak ada.. haishh.. aku pon buat lah cerita aku suka sowang senior ni. SENIOR bhaii... =P.. tah sape2, aku main petik je... aku pun tunjuk mamat senior ni --------> Syahmi ! Mula-mula main petik... lama-lama jadi meng'usha pulakk dah.. teeheee kawan-kawan yang rapat dgn aku ambik serius benda nih.. setiap kali TERserempak.. dieorang point out & keneng2 kan dengan Syahmi.. tak pasal2 je.. haha. kesian mamat tuh yg tak tahu apa2 ~ Aku pulak.. jenis melayan.. buat2 excited lah bil...

 >> duduk melepak tengah bilik sambil menulis entri .      Apa yang korang paham pasal 'relationship'? Relationship bagi aku adalah satu hubungan yang melibatkan satu orang dan lebih. Untuk mewujudkan satu relationship bukan mudah ! Ia memerlukan persetujuan serta komitmen setiap pihak .       Terdapat pelbagai jenis 'relationship' . HOHO. kawan, saudara, jiran, suami, isteri, ibu bapa, kekasih dan pelbagai lagi. Dalam banyak- banyak 'relationship' kawan adalah yang paling versatile. Selalunya kawan yang berada disekeliling kita pasti mempunyai sesuatu nilai yang sama dengan diri kita. Kita jarang berahsia dengan kawan, malah, kawanlah yang paling dipercayai. =) Kawan tempat kita merepek serta menjadi diri kita yang sebenar. Namun, seorang kawan yang baik, tidak akan sesekali mengaibkan rakannya yang lain.                                - jaga hati kawa...

          Malam yang sepi dan hiba . . .   Panjang sudah rupanya liku - liku hidup yang dilalui . .     Pahit manis kehidupan sudah kulalui sepanjang 2 dekad ini . . .   Tampak di luar tak sama dengan gelora yang berlaku dalam diri . . .   Senyum kulempar sedih ku pendam . . .     Tidak kunafikan semua hamba diuji bagi mengukur tahap keimanannya . . .     Namun kekadang.. ujian ini meluluhkan hati , harapan semakin pudar . .   Kitaran hidupku tak selalu menempatkan aku di atas . .   Pabila di bawah diri ini menjadi lumpuh. .   Dugaan inikah yang harus kutempuh ?   Setiap orang melakar sejarah kehidupan sendiri . .   Diri yang gersang ini juga sedang melakar sejarah hidupnya . .   Sejarah hidup yang jauh menyimpang dari sinopsis awalnya. . .   Menempa hidup mengikut kemampuan dan bukan lagi keinginan . . .   Hidup perlu diteruskan . . . ...

  Assalamualaikum ! =)    Lama dah tak update sejak masuk sem baru . HEE.. almaklumlah, busy   katanya. Dah bulan November pulak dah ! Dah penghujung tahun dah nih.. Tak sangka kan cepat betul masa berlalu.           Btw, saja nak inform yang sebenarnya midsem break aku dah pon bermula ! TAPI, aku masih di kolej.. tskk..tsskk.. HAHA. saja malas balik awal, rasa  macam banyak je kerja nak kena settle. tapi, haprak pon tak sentuh lagi.  mwehehehe.      Baru-baru ni, 9/10 birthday abang aku =) genaplah usia abng comel 22   tahun.. huhu. Dah tua dah abang aku rupanya. kahkahkah . Tapi, tak nak pon  dia mengaku... Semoga abang panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki oleh  Allah S.W.T =)      hehehe.. saja nak cakap, aku bagi abang hadiah + kad ! huahuahua.    Excited aku nak bagi hadiah. tapi, aku bagi lewat kat abang sebab susah  sangat nak jumpa.. ...

          Salam 10 terakhir ramadhan . ehehe . Apa khabar iman anda ? eicehh . XD Banyakkan ibadah ye .  Rebut pahala . Unlimited kot ! =)           Okay .Tadi sekadar bermuqaddimah. Padahal, aku pon baru je bangun tidoq haa . haha ! Tangan dah  gatal nak menaip , so , luangkanlah masa sikit. Tak salah pon .           Pagi tadi, bangun tido je , Afiq dah tanya soalan add maths . UUuuuii . .  terkejut otak den . Dia  ponteng sekolah kot hari ni ! Banyak homework katanya . Dasyat sungguh sekolah dia , bulan puasa pon  cikgu tak reti -reti nak bertolak ansur . Haha . Tapi , musykil jugak. . . entah2 dia yang bertangguh kan.  aduhaii. . .           Errmm. . . pagi tadi jugak, baru aku tau apa maksud ORA ET LABORA (motto sekolah afiq ). Maksud dia , berusaha dan berdoa . Haha . Aku rasa unik pulak , lagu sekolah diaorang me...

     Hello ! hehe ^_^     Salam Ramadhan buat tahun 1434H. Hari ini hari ke-8 ye kita berpuasa, semoga amal kita selama 8 hari ini diterima Allah S.W.T.   Aku tengah cuti semester ni. Dah tamat dah sessi pembelajaran aku untuk tahun satu. Secara keseluruhannya, aku tak berpuas hati dengan prestasi aku. hoho   Usah tanyalah soal pointer ye. Duniawi je semua tu. *KONON. Mesej utama yang aku nak sampaikan kat sini, banyak perubahan yang aku perlu lakukan.Anjakan paradigma macam tu lah ceritanya.huhu.    Aku dapat kenalpasti bahawasanya, banyak aspek yang aku kena perbaiki. uhukhukhuk =P *TAMAT*    Sukacita aku nak maklumkan, inilah bulan Ramadhan yang aku insha Allah akan sambutnya secara penuh di rumah. Sebelum ni tak pon, jarang amatlah nak sahur dan buka puasa bersama keluarga. Tahun lepas kerja part-time.hikhik. Patut pon ibu tak bagi aku kerja untuk kali ni.    Ibu mengetengahkan kerisauannya apabila melihat...

           بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم   Hai semua. =) hari ni tetiba terasa nak menaip. Actually sekarang, study week aku. Makin nak dekat time exam, bertambah pulak mood nak menaip. =) Ahhaaa! Bila teringat pasal exam, test , ujian bulanan , periksa akhir tahun,  PMR , SPM.....  tetiba aku teringat dengan sorang member aku =) heehee.. Maka, entry aku kali ni nak cerita pasal 'dia' lah gamaknya =D         Ehemm2x... ok! mana nak start yeee?? hmmm..macam nilah,, aku dan dia dah kenal selama 5 tahun,, since aku form3.. nak amek PMR =P. kenapa aku nak sangat story pasal dia ni..mesti plek kan..siap buat 1 entry khas untuk dia lagi ! hahaha...  takk...semua kawan aku special, tapi speciality dia ni lain daripada yang lain =)      Specialnya dia sebab,,,dialah satu-satunya SAHABAT MAYA aku. Sahabat maya sejati. We have not meet even once ! =) Tapi kiteorang always keep in touch.. HOW????? haha.....